I wish..

    If I wished hard enough..
        Could you really be mine?

Why do I like you so?

I can't understand why I'm liking you so much..Is it your hair?Your eyes?That killer smile?Or that voice that makes me melt?Maybe it's how nice you are?How caring you are?How understanding you are?All I know is I really really like you..

TT

There some things that I really wanna say..but I can never find the courage to say to the ppl I intend to..sorry I'm better at putting down my feelings and thought in writing than spoken words..So here..(even if u all won't see it)..I wanna say a few things..

To Senior WS n PY..sorry for always having you wait so long after practice to go home..and thank you for waiting too..

To KV..I really wanna fight in the competition next month..I really wanted to win(at least bronze) for myself, for the club n for you..sorry that I can't..


To the rest..I'm sorry that I don't talk much..I really wanna talk n play with u guys..but I guess I'm too shy?Hopefully 1 day I can show u guys the "sampat" side of me..

SORRY..

It's been a weird few weeks..

I'm happy one minute..jealous like crazy the next..

I wanna forget you one minute and then I wanna remember your voice the next..

I keep telling myself that it can't be but I try to find lies to tell myself..

I don't like being like this..losing control..losing the rational side of me..letting myself fall..

I wanna find myself again...I wanna focus on what I should..

Maybe one day I'll find the courage to tell you how I feel about you..

Maybe one day you'll accept my feelings for you..but that day will be far..

Right now,I can't afford to let you know..

I don't wanna see you run away from me..I don't wanna walk past you in the hallway without you even looking at me..

So now, I'll try my best to keep myself from falling further..

K21?

Perhaps..it may never be...

CHERRY!xD

Hehe, a wonderful addition to the household!

Took us 2 days to finally decide on a name for her..

Mum thought of some "odd" names for her..==("Precious" being the weirdest)..

Was close to naming her "Latte" too..

Finally we agreed on CHERRY!xD

A Grain of Solace..

Looking back..I shouldn't have been so mad at you..

I shouldn't have hated you..

I shouldn't have blamed you..

The only person there is to blame for all my pain is ME..

I'm sorry I let myself fall for you..

Sorry I let myself think of what we could've been..

Sorry to have waited for your name to light up on my phone..

Either way..thank you..

At least I was truly happy for awhile..even just a little while..

At least I can find a grain of solace by knowing how it felt like to be happy..

So sick..

It's not easy to find someone you like who likes you back..
I've never been close to being in a relationship nor do I want to..
but it just sickens me to always fall for someone who would never feel the same way I feel for him..

So I guess this is my first rant on my blog..
Never really did understand why people could write sooooo much on their blogs..now I know..
if I continue on my rants I could probably write a book..