What Am I Gonna Do?

When I grow up, I want to be :

1.)A pro football player

2.)An NBA player

3.)An equestrian
4.)Pro golfer

5.)Guitarist

6.)Fashion designer

7.)Architect
8.)Model

9.)Interior architect?
10.)Photographer?
11.)Singer?!?!==

Who’d knew that "growing up" would be in 4 months..

How'm I gonna survive the days after school?!

Not to mention the people I'm gonna miss..TT

Can I stay like this?
This age..
This time..
I wish I could..
But I gotta grow up..

No "CHEMISTRY" whatsoever..==

Have you ever met someone who you have no chemistry with whatsoever?
No matter how good-looking, how tall, how smart or even how rich they are?
I don't think looks and status matter..what's important is personality?
I could never be with someone who doesn't "click" with me..
I used to think I could be materialistic..I could be cold-hearted..To be able to ignore my feelings and manipulate a someone's feelings..Now I know..no matter how much I would like material luxuries..I would prefer spiritual happiness..No amount of money can ever buy happiness..As for material luxuries, I'd rather work to earn them myself..I don't need anyone to give me what I want..I get what I want myself..

Weird..O.o

So..I had this really weird dream last night.. I dreamt that I leaned on somebody's shoulder..but the problem is..I don't like him that way..maybe just as a friend?O.O
God..It felt so real..So safe..wish it was 21's shoulder though..TT
Do I really need a shoulder to lean on THAT much?!?!

A Crush That Won't Go Away?

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away...

Nothing reflects my feelings right now more than this song..


Can I tell you that I like you?
Even if you don't feel the same way, I hope you won't run away..
I'll be okay..  
I don't mind letting you know I like you..
I only mind that you'll mind..

I wish..

    If I wished hard enough..
        Could you really be mine?

Why do I like you so?

I can't understand why I'm liking you so much..Is it your hair?Your eyes?That killer smile?Or that voice that makes me melt?Maybe it's how nice you are?How caring you are?How understanding you are?All I know is I really really like you..

TT

There some things that I really wanna say..but I can never find the courage to say to the ppl I intend to..sorry I'm better at putting down my feelings and thought in writing than spoken words..So here..(even if u all won't see it)..I wanna say a few things..

To Senior WS n PY..sorry for always having you wait so long after practice to go home..and thank you for waiting too..

To KV..I really wanna fight in the competition next month..I really wanted to win(at least bronze) for myself, for the club n for you..sorry that I can't..


To the rest..I'm sorry that I don't talk much..I really wanna talk n play with u guys..but I guess I'm too shy?Hopefully 1 day I can show u guys the "sampat" side of me..

SORRY..

It's been a weird few weeks..

I'm happy one minute..jealous like crazy the next..

I wanna forget you one minute and then I wanna remember your voice the next..

I keep telling myself that it can't be but I try to find lies to tell myself..

I don't like being like this..losing control..losing the rational side of me..letting myself fall..

I wanna find myself again...I wanna focus on what I should..

Maybe one day I'll find the courage to tell you how I feel about you..

Maybe one day you'll accept my feelings for you..but that day will be far..

Right now,I can't afford to let you know..

I don't wanna see you run away from me..I don't wanna walk past you in the hallway without you even looking at me..

So now, I'll try my best to keep myself from falling further..

K21?

Perhaps..it may never be...

CHERRY!xD

Hehe, a wonderful addition to the household!

Took us 2 days to finally decide on a name for her..

Mum thought of some "odd" names for her..==("Precious" being the weirdest)..

Was close to naming her "Latte" too..

Finally we agreed on CHERRY!xD

A Grain of Solace..

Looking back..I shouldn't have been so mad at you..

I shouldn't have hated you..

I shouldn't have blamed you..

The only person there is to blame for all my pain is ME..

I'm sorry I let myself fall for you..

Sorry I let myself think of what we could've been..

Sorry to have waited for your name to light up on my phone..

Either way..thank you..

At least I was truly happy for awhile..even just a little while..

At least I can find a grain of solace by knowing how it felt like to be happy..

So sick..

It's not easy to find someone you like who likes you back..
I've never been close to being in a relationship nor do I want to..
but it just sickens me to always fall for someone who would never feel the same way I feel for him..

So I guess this is my first rant on my blog..
Never really did understand why people could write sooooo much on their blogs..now I know..
if I continue on my rants I could probably write a book..