恐怕会爱上你。。

GOING CRAZY!!!!!!

OH MY GOOD LORD IT's BEEN ONLY 2 DAYSSSSS~~~~~
It's so damn stressful..I didnt think I'd ever stress  over SPM..BUT THIS IS DRIVING ME CRAZY!!!!
I cant sleep at night..pimples are popping up..I cant think straight...I'm seriously going crazy ah...............
PLEASE END SOON PLEASE END SOON PLEASE END SOON....................................................
I've so given up on sejarah..................haiz..................................................................................................

HOT HOT HOT!!^^

Lol, this vid came out a while ago, but still, nonetheless, HOT!!Really lovin 2PM's style, especially in this vid!
*DROOLSSS

First Fashion Post?

So I found this site called Polyvore. You get to choose layouts and stuff to create a trend or style that you like.
It's kinda cool, hehe, I love it! 


Anyway, my fav style is anything red n hot..
So this week I'm feeling Rocker-chic!
This style can be dressed up or dressed down depending on where u're goin. 
My fav way of making any outfit Rocker Style is by adding studs, and leather to my outfit.
But go easy on the leather, leather from head to toe is a definite NO. 
I like to make the Rocker Style more feminine by pairing leather items with another plain or soft item.
( Like in the pic below )


A leather skirt paired with
- loose fitting top (silk, chiffon, cashemere)For a more elegant night out look.
- plain tee ( casual look ) 


There's also the couple look that I like.
I like Couple Styles that are coordinated..COORDINATED..not IDENTICAL..sure the whole couple shirts thing is cute..but that's when u're 16 (and at an amusement park) .


So some of the more mature ways to show that u're a couple through clothes is :
1.) Wearing the same style. 
2.) Wearing the same colour palette.
3.) Wearing 1 or 2 accessories that are of the same colour. 




So here's the women and men's Rocker Style that I put together.
(I'd love to wear this style with someone special too..hehe..but that won't be soon I guess..)

Rocker Style (women and men) created on Polyvore.

Side by side or miles apart, my best friends are always close to my heart.

No matter where we may go after finishing school..You guys will always be in my heart..The word 'friends' will always remind me of all of you and the memories of my school days will never lack you..
Although sometimes I wish I didn't have friends in school, then I would've studied harder, I would've had books as my only companions, I would've just went to school for the sake of studying..
BUT..I will never regret knowing all of you..without you guys..I wouldn't be who I am today..
Thank you all for giving me the confidence to trust people again..thank you for breaking my wall of silence..thank you for wanting to know who I am..thank you for helping me open up..Thank you, for being my friends..=]
I always will remember you guys..and always will <3 you guys..


(Sorry for my absolutely hair raising post..TT)


I guess it's finally hitting me how much I'll miss school with you guys..

The first few pics I took with u guys..
OMG UGLY UGLY ME ><

Wayyyyy back in 2008!!

2009~~(er,dont remember what other pics we took..hehe)

2010

2011

Form 5s..

Form 3 sampats..xD

Tkd..TT

Sungkai Trip..

The 'leftouts'..

Segar's 5 leng luis?xP
JK larh..

==

Wow, I've been in a really pathetic mood lately..hopefully it'll get better..don't wanna be so down throughout the weekend..
it's amazing how you can make me hate myself this way..I hate caring for you..hate wanting to know how you're doing..hate feeling my heart break to pieces because of you..hate feeling so weak..hate losing control..
hate myself for falling for you...


haiz..

미안해..좋아해..

It's better for me to know and be disappointed than to never know and always wonder..

So..

Even if you don't feel the same way about me..I'll be fine..I'll get over it..If I can like you as more than a friend..then liking you as JUST a friend..wouldn't be a problem..I've been through this before..I've learnt to be open-minded enough to accept your feelings..I've learnt to be mature enough to accept the fact that you think of me as nothing more than a friend..

So please don't run away..please don't avoid me..please don't be awkward around me..

Please don't..

제발 도망 하지마..

New Phone?Not just yet..

So, I've been phone hunting!Kya! Hopefully I get to change soon..
Thought of getting a Galaxy S2..but it seems a little too much?
i-phone 4?
Don't think a fully touch screen phone is for me though..
Been kinda into the Motorola Droid 3..
(Yes, I know Motorola is not the most popular brand..but still..it seems promising..)


So, how do I choose?-.-
At least I have a few months to choose..my super durable phone is still alive after surviving so many falls..I guess I'll only get a new one when it 'dies'..

Galaxy S2?

Motorola Droid 3?

i-Phone 4?

-.-

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BORED TO DEATH...

I know it's a one-sided thing..but can't I just hope?
Hope that the reason for your smile is I..Hope that your pain washes away when I'm with you..
Hope that when we catch each other's stares..your heart skips a beat just like how mine does too..
Hope that you feel the same way too..


Will I ever be able to reach your heart?

End of The World?

No, I'm not talking about the 2012 end of the world thing..


So, I know height is a really important thing..
but being short is not the end of the world right?


I won't complain about my height or ask "WHY THE HELL AM I NOT TALL?!"
So 'you' shouldn't too..


We should always be grateful for what we have right?At least having short legs is better than not having legs at all right?




To: The source of inspiration for this post..
           Realizing that you're actually 1cm shorter is NOT the end of the world..SO PLEASE..CALM DOWN!!!><


PLUS!There's always (killer) HEELS!

Sometimes, no matter how hard I've loved someone, he'll never love me back..
And sometimes, I have to be ok with that...

Take 2..

So, a couple of months back I entered my first ever singing competition with A. CHUA!

(YES, I KNOW IT's TOO LATE to ABOUT BLOG THIS=.=)

WE................................didn't win...-3-

Anyway it was a fun experience...I wanted to scream, faint,  jump, run...(phew!)

Obviously it was my first time singing on stage..O.O didn't know that I wouldn't be able to hear myself sing coz of all the screaming support!

(Thanks again for the screaming!:D)

PLUS--ADRIAN CHUA YOU MISSED THE BEAT!>.<

We sang kinda badly that day..but no worries..there're still many chances and songs for us to sing..

Erm..so..here's 'take 2' of us singing this (Lucky by Jason Mraz and Colbie Callait)...

Die ah..sure die..TT

TRIALS! 
     Only a day away . .T^T


 I'm SO NOT PREPARED for this..
 I'm actually more prepared to FAIL FAIL FAIL . .


 I kinda wish it was SPM though..
 I just wanna get it over and done with..
 After that, I'm FREE FREE FREE!!!
 I guess I'm the only one that wants SPM to come sooner..
 HAIZ...

What Am I Gonna Do?

When I grow up, I want to be :

1.)A pro football player

2.)An NBA player

3.)An equestrian
4.)Pro golfer

5.)Guitarist

6.)Fashion designer

7.)Architect
8.)Model

9.)Interior architect?
10.)Photographer?
11.)Singer?!?!==

Who’d knew that "growing up" would be in 4 months..

How'm I gonna survive the days after school?!

Not to mention the people I'm gonna miss..TT

Can I stay like this?
This age..
This time..
I wish I could..
But I gotta grow up..

No "CHEMISTRY" whatsoever..==

Have you ever met someone who you have no chemistry with whatsoever?
No matter how good-looking, how tall, how smart or even how rich they are?
I don't think looks and status matter..what's important is personality?
I could never be with someone who doesn't "click" with me..
I used to think I could be materialistic..I could be cold-hearted..To be able to ignore my feelings and manipulate a someone's feelings..Now I know..no matter how much I would like material luxuries..I would prefer spiritual happiness..No amount of money can ever buy happiness..As for material luxuries, I'd rather work to earn them myself..I don't need anyone to give me what I want..I get what I want myself..

Weird..O.o

So..I had this really weird dream last night.. I dreamt that I leaned on somebody's shoulder..but the problem is..I don't like him that way..maybe just as a friend?O.O
God..It felt so real..So safe..wish it was 21's shoulder though..TT
Do I really need a shoulder to lean on THAT much?!?!

A Crush That Won't Go Away?

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away...

Nothing reflects my feelings right now more than this song..


Can I tell you that I like you?
Even if you don't feel the same way, I hope you won't run away..
I'll be okay..  
I don't mind letting you know I like you..
I only mind that you'll mind..

I wish..

    If I wished hard enough..
        Could you really be mine?

Why do I like you so?

I can't understand why I'm liking you so much..Is it your hair?Your eyes?That killer smile?Or that voice that makes me melt?Maybe it's how nice you are?How caring you are?How understanding you are?All I know is I really really like you..

TT

There some things that I really wanna say..but I can never find the courage to say to the ppl I intend to..sorry I'm better at putting down my feelings and thought in writing than spoken words..So here..(even if u all won't see it)..I wanna say a few things..

To Senior WS n PY..sorry for always having you wait so long after practice to go home..and thank you for waiting too..

To KV..I really wanna fight in the competition next month..I really wanted to win(at least bronze) for myself, for the club n for you..sorry that I can't..


To the rest..I'm sorry that I don't talk much..I really wanna talk n play with u guys..but I guess I'm too shy?Hopefully 1 day I can show u guys the "sampat" side of me..

SORRY..

It's been a weird few weeks..

I'm happy one minute..jealous like crazy the next..

I wanna forget you one minute and then I wanna remember your voice the next..

I keep telling myself that it can't be but I try to find lies to tell myself..

I don't like being like this..losing control..losing the rational side of me..letting myself fall..

I wanna find myself again...I wanna focus on what I should..

Maybe one day I'll find the courage to tell you how I feel about you..

Maybe one day you'll accept my feelings for you..but that day will be far..

Right now,I can't afford to let you know..

I don't wanna see you run away from me..I don't wanna walk past you in the hallway without you even looking at me..

So now, I'll try my best to keep myself from falling further..

K21?

Perhaps..it may never be...

CHERRY!xD

Hehe, a wonderful addition to the household!

Took us 2 days to finally decide on a name for her..

Mum thought of some "odd" names for her..==("Precious" being the weirdest)..

Was close to naming her "Latte" too..

Finally we agreed on CHERRY!xD

A Grain of Solace..

Looking back..I shouldn't have been so mad at you..

I shouldn't have hated you..

I shouldn't have blamed you..

The only person there is to blame for all my pain is ME..

I'm sorry I let myself fall for you..

Sorry I let myself think of what we could've been..

Sorry to have waited for your name to light up on my phone..

Either way..thank you..

At least I was truly happy for awhile..even just a little while..

At least I can find a grain of solace by knowing how it felt like to be happy..

So sick..

It's not easy to find someone you like who likes you back..
I've never been close to being in a relationship nor do I want to..
but it just sickens me to always fall for someone who would never feel the same way I feel for him..

So I guess this is my first rant on my blog..
Never really did understand why people could write sooooo much on their blogs..now I know..
if I continue on my rants I could probably write a book..

I'm sorry...

Physical pain is nothing...

I can stand the physical pain..

It's the feeling of being incapable that hurts...

This year being my last year in school, I wanted  to do it for myself...

Even more...I wanted to do it for you...

Now, I can't do it...

I'm sorry...

Of all the days to get hurt...Why today?

BOREDD

So....
My first time writing a blog.....
So......
Hhhmmm........
Erm........
Don't know what to say......
Erm.........
Wait.........
Erm........
Wait........
What.....????
I don't get it......
So........                              


What's a blog anyway?!?!